Thursday, May 13, 2010

I've Seen Fire and I've Seen Rain....

I've seen lonely days when I could not find a friend. But I always thought that I'd see you again. A friend's FB post today reminded me of a classic James Taylor song that always makes me think of my brother. I never dreamed, at 19 years old, he'd be here one day and gone the next. After all the last few years prior to his death had brought me, I thought I was done with heartbreak. I thought, surely, I had paid my dues. But it just shows you never know. So just remember to hug and kiss and love the ones you take for granted. You never know who you might not see again.
Melissa

Thursday, May 6, 2010

The Blonde reminisces...

We've all heard it said "The grass is always greener on the other side". But really, what the adage should read is "We always THINK the grass is greener on the other side" Cus that's what it means, right? If you truly understand the saying, you know the grass isn't REALLY greener.. In fact, that lush bermuda is usually just a mirage, a satan-sparked illusion that immediately turns to wilted, sticker-filled hay as soon as you jump that white-picket fence.
So why do we do it? Why do so many of us still reminisce about the past as if it was the best time in our lives? Why do we still long for things we once had? I mean, we gave them up for a reason... right? Why do we day dream about what could have been, what could be, or what's "out there" that we're missing out on?
Why do we google exes and take trips down memory lane?
I'm sure you're thinking I have an answer to all these questions, or at least a theory... But you would be wrong in that assumption. I don 't know. I don't know why some songs remind me of an ex-boyfriend. Yeah, he gave me butterflies in my stomach. But looking back, maybe I was just nauseous ;) But I could care less about someone who was so detrimental to me. So why?
No, my every day life doesn't give me butterflies all the time. It's not exciting and riveting and all the things I used to enjoy fleeting feelings of when I was youngER and single... But I wouldn't trade that crazy, roller-coaster of emotions life for the even crazier, stable life that I have now. I might give some of the responsibility and bills back... But I wouldn't change the people in my life at all. (Read: my husband hasn't ticked me off today ;))
So why do we reminisce? Why do we stare longingly at that greener grass from our toy-cluttered home? Why do we wonder "what if"? Human nature, I guess. Which makes me wonder when us humans are gonna get smarter... ;)
Have a good day,
Melissa